24.4.05

got this from my friendster bulletin board..nice toh!

its been 4 months since i saw him and talagang namimiss ko na siya... pero what can i do? It seems that i have loved the wrong person.... but still the pain keeps on hurting me and kung walang magbibigay ng gamot para dito sa nararamdaman ko.... baka mamatay na ako.... to give you a background about my life, everthing seems to be fine except dun sa time na dumating na sa buhay ko yung hinayupak na lalake na yon.... hehehehe.... kung curious kayo about dun sa guy... bestfriend ko po yon kaso lang iba na ang nangyari as time passes by..... classmate ko sya nung highschool. pards pa nga ang tawagan namen.... o db ang sweet? di na ako iba sa kanya and ganon na ren sya sa aken.... kung di nga lang ako naging babae baka naiuwi na ako nun sa bahay nila and baka lahat ng gawaing pang brusko eh ipagawa na nun sa ken eh..... pero cyempre mukha pa ren naman akong babae noh!! highskul cyempre may prom.... wala cyang date, wla ren ako.... i know that he wanted to invite me to be his date pero ang ogag nga kasi nun kaya the last minute tsaka lang sya nag-ask. he went to our house... nakamotor po sya and medyo pawisan pero in fairness.... mabango pa ren.... he asked my permission to see my dress for the prom.... cyempre para maloka sya sa aken at may konting surprise... i refuse.... o sige, medyo na frustrate sya pero hindi yon naging hadlang para invite nya ko.... sa ganda ko na to..... cyempre ang dami munang pa-echeng.... hanggang sa tanungin nya ako kung may date na ba me.... ekung di ba naman siya abnormal eh.... papayag ba akong makipagdate sa iba eh sya lang ang gusto ko.... lam mo yon... sarap sampalin.... so in short, papilit pa ba ako? syempre..... the night of my life came, i was so pretty sabi ng nang-uuto kong nanay... pero naniwala lang ako nang sya na ang nagsabi.... blush ako ever.... kahit alam kong maganda ako since birth(hehehehe) iba pa ren yung sa kanya galing diba? we enjoyed that night and lalo ko lang napatunayan sa sarili ko na mahal ko na pala anghinayupak na bestfrend ko...... syempre ano pa ba ang sunod na event sa prom kundi ang graduation na db? the night before the graduation, we talked on the phone na para bang it would be the last time na maririnig namen ang boses ng isat-isa..... ive waited for the moment na mabanggit nya na may feelings din sya and hindi naman ako nagkamali.... tinanong nya ako kung may possibilty daw na maging kame.... i know na maiinis kayo sa ken dahil alam nyo ba ang sagot ko? ah, eh.... hindi pwede kase bestfrends tayo eh.... yung mga anak na lang naten yung ipag- partner naten.... sa isip-isip ko.... ang tanga! pano ko nasabi ang ganong words? pero wala na akong magagawa..... alam naming bawiin ko pa eh di nahuli naman ako db? pe ro ang tanga ko talga.... cyempre college na.... im so proud to say na napunta naman ako sa magandang school and take note... pareho kame ng skul..... ano to? kailangan bang ituloy ang naudlot na pagmamahalan namen?.... hehehe.... nagkaboyfriend ako for a year and a half.... minahal ko sya pero there are these conflicts and problems na di na kayang ayusin.... in short....nagbreak kame..... i guess god meant that to happen kasi yon din yung time na nagkita kame ng bestfrend ko..... sa sobrang miss namen ang isa't-isa.... sabay na kameng umuwi, kumain, pumasok..... im happy pero parang lalo ko lang pinahirapan ang sarili ko dahil my feelings for that guy grows each and everytime that we are together... buti na lang magaling akong magtago at magpigil.... hehehe.... bilib kayo noh?..... one morning, im so busy preparing my project that would be pass on that same day.... alam kong dumati ng na sya at nasa likuran ko na ang mokong pero dahil sobrang pressure sa project.... gusto ko man syang dambahan... cyempre mamayang gabi na lang di ba? hehehe.... di ko sya masyadong napansin..... may inabot syang sulat sa aken and he asked if I could join him sa lunch.... i said yes.... then, alis na cya.... alam naman kc nyang im busy..... when i was about to enter the room, somebody bumped me and my precious project fell... gusto ko mang magalet... what can i do db? instead I ask my prof to give me another chance to do my project.... naalala ko si mokong.... the lunch date.... kinuha ko ang cell ko to text him that I cant come to our meeting.... e kaso.... pagtinamaan k nga naman ng malas.... check operator service daw.... i tried to look for friends or other kakilala pero malas that day talaga.... and so i took my lunch all by my self.... naalala ko yung letter.... hinanap ko sa bag... WALA !!!! bumalik me sa corridor praying na andon pa yung sulat.... wala ren.... god! why? minsan lang magbigay ng sulat yon.... nawala pa.... dont know how to tell him about the letter.... and so days and weeks passed, pag nagkikita kame... di nya ako pinapansin... ako, i tried to talk to him pero alam kong may kasalanan ako pero ganon ba kalaki ang nagawa kong di pagpunta at ganon na lang ang iwas nya?... sige... hinayaan ko na lang.... months na ang binilang... i heard that he was dating a girl from the same school that we are in... masakit.... na sa iba ko pa narinig na sila na.... mas masakit na wala na akong halaga sa kanya..... basta... ilang araw din yon na ganon ang nararamdaman ko.... weeks.... months.... gagraduate na po ako.... I wonder what's instore for me in my last day in school.... and so I thought na puntahan yung favorite hang out namen.... when i was about to get near the place.... i saw him... with the girl.... umiiyak ang bruha but i cant hear what they are talking about.... so ive decided to get out of that place before my tears burst out.... and then a common frend ang sumalubong sa aken.... saying na buntis ang girl.... syempre.... durog na durog ang puso ko.... kung kaya nyo lang ma-imagine yung naramdaman ko..... the night of that same day.... naloka ang lola nyo.... nagparamdam ang mokong pagkaraan ng pagkatagal-tagal na panahon... i thought it was something good for me... for us.... pero i was wrong.... so wrong..... he gave me a wedding invitation and isa ako sa bridesmaids..... the girl... she was waiting in the car.... o db? Dati motor lang ngaun... car na.... and so the wedding came.... maganda po ako nun.... sabi ng nanay ko pero wala ng nagsecond the motion eh.... so naniwala na lang ako sa nanay ko.... then, there was this professor who c ame to see me.... he handed over a letter with my name carefully printed on the enveloped.... he said that he looked for the owner of that letterkaso lang po malaki po ang skul namin kaya mahirap magkahanapan db? and so nung nakita nya ang name ko sa invitation, he decided to bring the letter thinking that it could save souls... daw.... and so i was about to open the letter when the priest ask kung sino daw ang tututol... dedma ako.... alam namang manggulo pa ko noh.... binasa ko na ang letter..... nakakatouch po talaga.... he opened up his feelings for me.... hoping na meron din daw akong feelings forhim.... he ask that if i will show up to our hang- out the next day after he gave his letter, then it means that i also have feelings for him and that he would love me for the rest of our lives.... but if i wont.... then he will never open that topic again.... he pleaded to me na sana pumunta ako... ... if only i have that letter.... if only i knew about it.... kung di lang ako clumsy and carelss to keep that letter... things would be diffrent.... if only..... and so i heard the priest announced the couple as husband and wife.... ang sakit...... picture taking..... gusto mang sumabog ng nararamdaman ko.... as you know.... magaling akong magpigil.... pero masakit po talaga.... sobra...... after the picture taking...... niyakap ako ngbestfrend ko.... ang higpit.... and teary eyed nyang cnabi na.... i still love you.......

asteeg tlga toh!

At a certain college, there was a professor with a reputation for being tough on Christians. At the first class every semester, he asked if anyone was a Christian and proceeded to degrade and mock their statement of faith.
One semester, he asked the question and a young man raised his hand when asked if anyone was a Christian. The professor asked, "Did God make everything, young man?"
"Yes he did, sir," the young man replied.
The professor responded, "If God made everything, then God made evil, and if we can only create from within ourselves, then God is evil."
The student didn't have a response and the professor was happy to have once again proved the Christian faith to be a myth.
Then another man raised his hand and asked, "May I ask you something, sir?"
"Yes you may," responded the professor.
The young man stood up and said, "Sir, is there such thing as cold?"
Of course there is, what kind of a question is that? Haven't you ever been cold?"
The young man replied, "Actually, sir, cold does not exist. What we consider to be cold, is really only the absence of heat. Absolute zero is when there is absolutely no heat, but cold does not really exist. We have only created that term to describe how we feel when heat is not there."
The young man continued, "Sir, is there such thing as dark?"
Once again, the professor responded "Of course there is."
And once again, the student replied "Actually, sir, darkness does not exist. Darkness is really only the absence of light. Darkness is only a term man developed to describe what happens when there is no light present."
Finally, the young man asked, "Sir, is there such thing as evil?"
The professor responded, "Of course. We have rapes, and murders and violence everywhere in the world, those things are evil." The student replied, "Actually, sir, evil does not exist. Evil is simply the absence of God. Evil is a term man developed to describe the absence of God. God did not create evil. It isn't like truth, or love, which exist as virtues like heat and light. Evil is simply the state where God is not present, like cold without heat or darkness without light."

The professor had nothing to say.

class prophecy namen...gnda noh?!

"BASANG PISNGI"
(IV-NEWTON batch 03-04 class prophecy)
By: Mary Rose Nimenzo Bagtas

"ma para!"
i was startled by the voice of the other passengers. maybe because 'twas so quiet. "haay ang boring nman!" i said to myself ith a sigh...all of a sudden everything got dark. i was beginning to be nervous by whats happenin. i just heard myself sayin, "ma diyan lng po sa tabi!" and gettin down from the jeepney.
the ambiance as very different; everythin was changed. then i heard screamin people. i thought that there as a fire or an emergency but hen i followed the noise, i was surprised to see familiar faces. then one of them waved at me then told everyone, "hoy si che andito na, as usual late na naman!" then they all loked at my direction with smiles. the other one told me, "10 usapan natin ah, hoy miss president 12 na po! nagpa-humble ka pa at sumakay ng jeep, lika na nga dito!" i laughed as i went to them. "oi ano kumpleto na ba?! tara dun na lng daw tau sa resort nila princess mag-celebrate, alam nio naman so rich na siya and take note, apat na resort ang pag-aari niya." so we went to her resort and partied.
then someone approached me "hoy kumusta n?!" twas carla holding her son. "eto, ok lng, ikaw?!" i replied. "ok lng, may-ari na ko ngaun ng isang mall sa ayala and i am no a dentist based in the us, ikaw?!". "i am now the president of one of the leading companies here in asia and i am also the owner of C.H.E Broadcasting Company. yah know ung tumalo sa ABS and GMA?!"well, i said that with great honor, after all i never thought that i ould get this far. after some chatting with her, i joined my other friends. "oi miss president! ano na ba tawag ko sau chia parin ba?!", "oo naman, kaw, eyok parin ba?!" she laughed. "yah, so kamusta? ka ha balita ko malayo na narating mo!". "ah di naman masyado, ok lng, eto president ng one of the leading companies here in asia and owner ng C.H.E Broadcasting Company, kaw?!" . "naks naman! di ba un ung tumalo sa GMA and ABS?! galing ha...ako?! nakatira ko ngaun sa france, i am working there as a CEO of a top company and a chef of my on resto as a sideline" she replied. i was very happy for her, all of her dreams came true! we parted for a moment as i talked to khaye or shall i say Mrs. Ayala. yes, she as the headline of every newspaper coz of her recent marriage with an ayala. i remembered reading an article about her saying that aside from the companies that she owns, she's also included in the elite society of the philippines. wow! like everyone, she asked me about my social status and i gladly replied, "im the president of one of the leading companies here in asia and the owner of C.H.E broadcasting compny!"
i sat for a moment, drinking when i spotted Desiree. i walked towards her and greeted, "wow ishi ang sexy mo na!" then she replied, "talaga?! thanks. kamusta ka na?!" "ako?! im ok, im already the president of one of the leading companies here in asia nd the proud owner of C.H.E Broadcasting Company!" "wow naman! ako, eto, i finished my masteral in Harverd the a company in the US is asking me for my service, yah know, a job offer but tumanggi ako coz ms maganda ung offer saken sa Milan but i am also considering a job offer in the Uk and Briatin." "Naks naman world class!" i replied. then Louzel joined us. "hi! hows life?! balita ko Mrs. ISla ka na?!" "yah we're so much in love with each other." i smiled at her s i remembered 3-hour telecast of her wedding with mark isla. "the telecast of your wedding was so beautiful and ur wedding was overwhelming!" "yah, kze ung crew ng show ko sabe itelecast daw namen, ung rating nga was overwhelming and supported nman ako ng co-artist ko and the fashion designer n pinagmomodelan ko, kaw kamusta?!" "ako?! im the president of one of the leading companies here in asia and the owner of C.H.E broadcasting company, ung sister company ng broadcasting company that your working for?!" i replied.
i walked towards the pool side nd found Mary Grace, Gelyn, Lara and Agatha. i smiled and waved at them. its great to know that until now they are still the best of friends. "hey kamusta?!" gelyn greeted me. "eto ok lang.." i replied. "oi balita ko ure so rich and popular na ha!" lara teased me. "di namn, im just the president of one of the leading companies here in asia and the owner of C.H.E broadcasting company, kayo?!" "wow, ang taas na ng narating ng C.H.E ah, congrats! me naman im currently running for senatorial, you know naman, i want to be in politics, di ba dati Sk chairman ako so tinulot tuloy ko na." lara answered then agatha said, "im now a fashion designer and a model in LA and im currently working on a fashion magazine that i will launch" "ako namn, im working in italy as an actress, meron ng kming shooting next week, i just went here for our reunion then ill fly back to italy. hey nood ka non ha, ill be working with big stars!" gelyn said. "of course naman ill watch, from what ive heard, big star ka na talaga!" i assured her. "im now a model for Vogue magazine. and producer in hollywood are asking me if i could act kze they want to make a movie with me as their leading actress. theyre also planning to have a movie with me and gelyn, we're bestfriends so parang gagawa sila ng movie bout that" grinnie said. i told them "wow ha! pang international na ang fame nio! baka nman di nio na kame makilala!" then we all laughed. i said goodbye to them and walked towards Dane, Julie and Allaiza. "julie?! kaw ba yan?! shucks ang PUTI mo na ha! Dane, i heard youre now a rock star...nice...and Muthy, ure sexy na ha! kamusta na ba kau?! "Hey, i am now engr. allaiza esteban! you know, im now married to christian, we're living in California where he was born. kahit na contrast coz he joined starstruck and i joined SCQ back hten, we got along really well nd when we met, it was love at first sight!" "now im a rock star and im proud to say that i ruled the hit charts all over the world for three months! im gonna launch my new song in about 3 weeks from now, may concert tour ako and it will start in the Uk, hopefully, ill be performing here in the Philippines." i said, "Yah i saw ur music video and twas great! eh kaw julie, hos ure life?!" julie answered, "its supah fine, imagine ill be dancin for the royalties in London and im married to the person i trully love. here in the philippines, i own the biggest salon nd i also own a dancing school w/c is originally based in the US..meron na din non dito!" "gosh! i really like ur look today ha, nagimprove ka tlaga at first i didnt even recognize you!" i told her. i talked to them for a couple more minutes then i excused myself when i spotted Ruth Grace and Gellene. "hi che kamusta!" gellene greeted me. "ok lng, hoy ano?! tinanggap mo na ba ung offer ko na for you to ork in my company?!" "yah, im still thinkin about it, tinatapos ko lng muna ung contract ko with CNN" "eh ikaw babi, hows life?!" "well, i now have a company of my pown in makati, nakikipag negotiate ako ngaun sa company ni eyok. im also in the clothing and spa business. ika?!" "well, im the president of one of the leading companies here in Asia and the owner of C.H.E Broadcasting company" then someone said, "ah ika nga pala ung owner non! congrat! taas ng ratings nio!" it was Julie Ting and Maendra. "hi kamusta na kau?!" i greeted them. "well i pursued my dream and now i own the largest university in the Philippines!" "ah oo nga pala kaw ung owner non. shucks! internationally acclaimed un ah! and that school produces bright people, congrats! ikaw ting?!" "im happy coz i now have my family and i am now a doctor, i also own the largest hospital here and abroad!"
we had a nice chat then i went to the boys to say hi. Patrick was the first to greet me. "hi chia, narecieve mo ba ung book na pnaadala ko sau?!" "yup! ilove it! galing mo talaga sumulat!" "xempre i am no a world renowned author and novelist. next tym usap tau so i can publish a buk bout our class" he said. "sure! ill arrange that and fit it in my sked!" then Justin greeted me "oi che musta na, ano meron sau?!" "well im very much ok, im now the president of one of the leading companies here in asia and the proud owner of C.H.E broadcasting company" "wow naman! ako, xempre im doing what i like. i am no the editor and photographer of FHM magazine. hey can i talk to some of the artist in your company baka kze meron akong potential models" he said. and i answered "sure kaw pa!" then Troy said, "Ang yaman mo na che! ako im the owner of the largest CARROT products factory in the whole world and the voice behind Bugs BUnny in Cartoon Network, cool diba?!. "yah i remembered nung tinutukso ka naming bunny dati!"
then i spotted Daryl nd waved at him, i mean her...well whatever! "Hi Dandy! so kamusta na?!" "well, im no trhe model for BAYOTA and im in the top of the list of the 100 sexiest person in the world!" "AMAZING! kw ha sexy ka na! would u like an interview in one of the shows in my company? kze im the owner of C.H.E broadcasting company and the preesident of one of the leading companies here in asia." he answered "sure!" i mean she...then Algee approached me with Chester and Marco. "hi che" they all greeted. "hi! kamust na kau?!" algee answered "im happy coz i am now a renowned engr and i am happy ith carla! bukas nga pala ay aawardan ako ni President Dolor para sa outstanding engr in the philippines" "kmi nman ni marco ay mga international web designer na. we've also come up with a new massive multiplayer online game which will be released in mid december" then marco said "if u want we can make ur compnys website" i answered them with a big yes! they really are a big help to me. then Kerrence, Paul, Richardson and Brian Kristian joined us.
"hi kamusta?! hay krenz i heard kau parin ni gellene! congrats!" kerenz replied "ah oo! tnx!" "so kumusta na b ang buhay-buhay?!" i asked them. "uhmmm...im happy now with leng and im working wihtn algee on our new project and like him, ill also be awarded with the outstanding engr award" then paul said "yah i ould be awarding them and im no getting ready for my meeting ith the other presidents of the world" i told him "i see mr. president, i hope magwork out ung plans nio for our country. so palacio and bk, kau kamusta?!" palacio said "i am now an architect based here in the philippines but i have clients form Texas and Germany" "me naman, im now the top businessman of the world and i own 4 compnies. kaw kamusta ka na?!" bk said "i am no the president of one of the leading companies here in asia and im also the owner of C.H.E Broadcasting Company"
After talking to all of them i let out a sigh. "wow di ko naman paulit-ulit na sinabi na I am the president of one of the leading companies here in asia and i am the owner of C.H.E broadcasting company. sana pinahawak nlng nila ko ng megaphone o kaya sinbi ko nlng sa mic un! in fairness napagod ako dun!" but i was still very happy...all of our dreams came true...after so many years, we developed into new individuals but deep inside we're still the same...same old 4-Newton who used to be very noisy! ill never forget those times...
i walked slowly towards the pool, remembering the old times...ill never forget that i went to caloocan science and met them. they were the best family i ever had(well, next to my real family)...they were the best friends i ever had...several years haad passed and nothin change...i wasnt happy because of what weve become no, thats just half of it. im happy coz we're still the same old picture of 4-Newton. the reunion wasnt about where weve gotten but all about our friendship, our hopes, our dreams and the family that weve built among us. i can still remember all the usapan about October 10, 2010 at hte 10th avenue and our mall with shutayan resto...now we're her...everything came true...10 years had passed...and i can still see the same old 4-Newton...thatll forever be my family...
then i reached for the water and felt it in my cheeks...then someone called me... "miss, miss!" i searched for the voice but couldnt find it. "miss, miss!" then someone shooked me. i opened my eys and realized that i was still in the jeepney. the driver asked me "miis, saan ho ba kau?! nasa dulo na po kze tau eh!" i was shocked realizing that i was very far from school.."patay late na ko!"
it was then i realized that everything was a dream...i got out of the jeep then the driver called back at me..."MISS PUNASAN PO NINYO YUNG PISNGI NIYO...BASA!"
hehehe..thats our class...tataas ng mga dreams noh...parang impossible maabot...but the hell we care, its our life and thats the way we want it...we do things our way coz we like it...e do not ;live to impress other people...HA! 4-NEWTON Rulez!!! hehehe

mga quotes...

ill type all the quotes in my fone pra maremember ko...not all...ung mga cute lang and worth remembering...im a sucker for quotes kze eh...and poems and cute stories pla...hehehe...enjoy reading 'em!
**sometimes not everything u want is given to you..
like the ideal person u want to be with, it may not turn
out the way u expect it to be, but at the end you'll see
that what u have is better than what u wanted....
***loving someone who doesnt love u back is like
reaching for a star..u know you'll never reach it
but u just have to keep on tryin bcoz one day,
who knows?! it mytfall
**love is like a roll of tissue paper. you'll never know
how much you've wasted till u get to the end and theres
none left, then its sad to realize that much of it was
wasted on shit after all....
***ang love parang yosi, kahit lam na makksakit,
at di magttgal, cge prin sa paghithit..laging snsabi
na ttgilan n, pro pg anjan n, dn mpglan. at madalas
pag sumombra, mahirap na huminga...
**i guess to have u will never be, and i have to accept
it even if it hurts me, but theres one thing i'll ask from
you..and i hope u'll grant it too...will u let me luv u til i
get over you?!!
***it wud be the loneliest feeling standing cold un-
der the rain all alone..but if u were there huggin me
tight, just ryt there by my side, i ud justhope it rained
ofor the rest of my life...
**isnt it sad? wen u have so much pain in ur heart and
the only person u want to talk to and can make u stop
cryin is exactly the same person who made you cry...

19.4.05

the spinach is blanch...

wutz up wit mah title? i dunno..mah summer is blanch...am so dead tired...my mom and i went to the mall to pay the bills and unwind, normally when i go to the mall i buy sumthin, not today...im so not in the mood to shop today...i feel really bad, like im sick in the insides, i developed a cold only this morning and its really annoying...i hate having a cold...am bored...i havent watch the spongebob movie and ive been looking forward to it since forever...it really sucks when u dont have money to spend...i found thid really cute spongebob lunchbox and it totally rocks! i asked my mom to buy it for me but she refused point blank...said sumthin bout me not growin up and all...thats not true...i just really like spongebob...and barbie...and dora...but im more mature now coz i think differently bout stuff...i like kids stuff but that doesnt mean i think like a kid right?! anywayz...me and mah friends had an outing a week ago and twas fun but not THAT fun coz some of mah closest friends werent there, they made some lame excuse bout bein busy and stuff...i didnt believe some of them, i dont think they're busy at all, i mean they went swimming with their new friends, how come they werent busy on that day and was suddenly busy on the day of our outing? i think they just made a choice, too bad they didnt choose us...but its ayt..i still love them...afterall they're my friends........i need a new book, im done reading my hp5 and my cuz's tuesdays with morrie and the five ppol u meet in heaven...its really nice...the two latter books made me cry...hehe...im such a sucker for books that makes me cry...hehehe...i love books...i wished for my friends to give me books for my 18th bday (but i didnt really tell them) but all i got was a bunch of stuffed animals which are really cute and very much appreciated...i cant sleep!!!!!!!!! ill go to bed and try to sleep na nga! ta-ta! out!

15.4.05

i hate my very slo pc and my freakin net connection!

i just typed a really long blog and when im saving it voila! its gone!!!!! i dunno what freakin happen! it the very first time that i put time and energy in typing a blog and its gone just like tha!!! aaaarrrggghhh!!!! i hate this! i typed really nice and interesring things in there! urgh! i hate this day!!! everything just seems to ne wrong! out!