26.6.08

hindi pa la ko nababaliw. turns out i wasn't the only one who talks, find answers to life's questions and writes to myself. kala ko nababaliw na ko pag nagsusulat ako ng advice for myself sa journ ko, hindi pala. maganda pala ung ganon, you get to know yourself better. ayun.


[epekto ng palagiang panonood ng oprah]
waaah.

ene = badtrip

ene = boredom

ene = lullabye

haay, ene sucks!

25.6.08

masakitangulokotinatamadpakogumawangkahitanobukasmayipapasangpostlabreporttatloyunkasosobrangtinatamadtalagakoatsobrangmasakitangulokopast9nakonakadatingngbahaypestepanokayabukasmadaliansigematutulognakomasakittalagauloko.


good night. ta-ta!

22.6.08

umuulan.

no, that was an understatement.

BUMABAGYO.

yea, all caps. when i woke up this morning, the wind was howling like a mad dog and it was pouring like crazy. scary. y'all know how i hate this kind of weather. but it's kind of a good thing that it's just rain and strong winds, no thunder or lightning - the really scary stuff.

[sigh]

uhm.

whoa.

the country's trashed again. stupid typhoon. i dunno why them typhoons keep on hitting our country when i know that they [or it] knows very well that our facilities and funds aren't up to par with the devastation it so loves to bring with them [or it].

[sigh]

can't think of anything more to talk about. blah!

...


haay naku, good night na nga lang. ta-ta!

15.6.08

i love my friends. i love the laughs, the kakornyhan and everything.

uhm.

i


yea, you too.

11.6.08

paranoia

it's wrong and undoubtedly so untrue but somehow, for some alien reason, i feel like a total outsider. like i don't belong, not anymore. i dunno. it's weird. maybe it's just me, it can't possibly be them. me and my paranoid self. dang.

why do i get a feeling that this year isn't gon' be a great one?

9.6.08

may pasok na. pero hindi pa bukas. two tulog pa.

excited? not.

5.6.08

Oo - Up Dharma Down


‘Di mo lang alam
Naiiisip kita
Baka sakali lang maisip mo ako
‘Di mo lang alam
Hanggang sa gabi inaasam makita kang muli

Nagtapos ang lahat sa di inaasahang pahanon
At ngayon ako ay iyong iniwan
Luhaan, sugatan, ‘di mapakinabangan
Sana nagtanong ka lang
Kung ‘di mo lang alam
Sana’y nagtanong ka lang
Kung ‘di mo lang alam

Ako’y iyong nasaktan
Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman
Hindi mo lang alam
Kay tagal na panahon
Ako’y nandirito pa rin hanggang ngayon para sa’yo

Lumipas mga araw na ubod ng saya
‘Di pa rin nagbabago ang aking pagsinta
Kung ako’y nagkasala patawad na sana
Puso kong pagal ngayon lang nagmahal

‘Di mo lang alam
Ako’y iyong nasaktan
Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman
Puro s’ya na lang
Sana’y ako naman
‘Di mo lang alam
Ika’y minamasdan
Sana’y iyong mamalayang hindi mo lang pala alam

‘Di mo lang alam
Kahit tayo’y magkaibigan lang
Napapaligaya lang sa tuwing nagkukulitan
Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman
Ako’y nandito lang
Hindi mo lang alam
Matalino ka naman

Kung ikaw at ako
Ay tunay na bigo sa laro na ito
Ay dapat bang sumuko
Sana hindi ka lang pala aking nakilala
Kung alam ko lang ako’y masasaktan ng ganito
Sana’y nakinig na lang ako sa nanay ko

‘Di mo lang alam
Ako’y iyong nasaktan
Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman
Puro s’ya na lang
Sana’y ako naman
Isang kindat man lang
‘Di mo lang alam
O, ika’y minamasdan
Sana iyo’y mamalayang di mo lang pala alam
Oooooooo

Malas mo
Ikaw ang natipuhan ko
Di mo lang alam
Ako’y iyong nasaktan


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went to trinoma with my brother and cousin. just to hang. didn't really do anything. tambay lang sa starbs. saw jhunmie. he said i was huge. haha. funny. funny coz its true. haha.

purged again but not because i forced myself, uhm technically, i did force myself but thats because my tummy is super aching and i know i'd only feel better after i puked. i didn't really want to but i have to. see the difference?

enrollment tomorrow. haay. still haven't told my 'rents. oh well, they'll find out anyways might as well wait til the day they do. there's good in waiting. right? haha.




3.6.08

Migraine - Moonstar88

Oo nga pala, hindi nga pala tayo
Hanggang dito lang ako, nangangarap na mapa-sayo
Hindi sinasadya
Na hanapin pa ang lugar ko
Asan nga ba ako? Andiyan pa ba sa iyo?

Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Aasa ba ko sayo?

Nasusuka ako, kinakain na ang loob
Masakit na mga tuhod, kailangan bang lumuhod?
Gusto ko lang naman, yung totoo
Hindi po ang sagot, hindi rin isang tanong

Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Asan ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Aasa ba ko sayo?

Dahil, di na makatulog (makatulog)
Dahil di na makakain (makakain)
Dahil di na makatawa (makatawa)
Dahil, di na

Oo nga pala, hindi nga pala tayo
Hanggang dito na lang ako

Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Asan ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Aasa ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo... Nahihilo...
Nalilito...

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siyet tong kantang to. tae talaga. di matanggal sa tiny head ko. haaaaay...oo nga naman. hindi naman. bakit umaasa? hindi nga naman. bakit pa malilito? haaaayyy....
still haven't saved enough for my tuition fee. oh, i haven't told you?

well, i didn't tell my folks that i failed this one subject so now, im saving money so that i could pay for it. it suck. i could've told them but i disappointed them too much already and i don't want to add any more disappointments. they would've understood though, im just too proud. argh! its too much of a burden nga eh. haay.

maybe i'll just tell my mom, but not till after my dad leaves. can't bear to look at his reaction when i do tell him. ayun.

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"asan ba ko sayo? aasa ba ko sayo?"