easily one of the best Christmas ever!!!


i am one of those melodramatic fools
neurotic to the bone no doubt about it.


i now know where i got my "em0" from. my dad. my mom. my brother. damn.

yea, i guess we're an emo family. haha.


texted my brother something i'd never thought i'd tell him. i typed then pressed send and i didn't think, i didn't think i needed to, coz if it was me, i want someone to do the same thing for me. i got really emotastic but i didn't care. i don't ever want him to feel that way again so if i have to text him emo shit everyday, i fucking would. no one deserves that feeling. no one.
everyone expects too much from me. that's just unfair. really unfair. stop. please.
i get where my brother's emotion comes from. the feeling of not being able to do anything right, the feeling of being always blamed, i get that. but that's just a feeling, that's just his feeling coz no one blames him. sometimes the way he act his feelings out are just wrong. i wish i could tell him to stop thinking that we blame him for things coz we don't, and sometimes i wish he'd just admit that he's plain wrong and stop feeling sorry for himself coz he really shouldn't. if anyone should feel like a loser in this house, it's definitely not him. not me either. no one actually.

my brother's such an emo. maybe i should give him a journal, i don't think he vents out his anger or any feelings he has thats why it appears on situations that it shouldn't be in. i wish he's ok.

anyhoo, today was fun.



how can you see me and still love me?

-love story



wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are.

-kurt cobain

i'll keep this in mind.
love is a verb more than it is a noun. just saying.


Real Love can last forever precisely because it’s a decision.

-bo sanchez


scratch that last post. i always write the meanest and stupidest thing evar. but that's better than saying it out loud.

hmmm. but i still can't wait to get out of here.


lots of experience. lots of you telling me how stupid i am. so yea, you get what you give. i. really. can't. wait. to. get. the. fuck. out. of. here.
blogger, installing a new template can be such a pain. see, this is why i love tumblr.


maybe this just isn't the layout for me. try again tomorrow. uhm, i mean later. it's almost 3am. haha.
ugh!!! stupid widget spacing!!!!!!!!!


testing. . . .

testingtesting testingtest testing testing. quote ito kowt oto mahabang quote mahabang quote. ayon quotes.
ugh! what's up with this new template! i can't figure out how to fix it. i've tweaked and tweaked to no avail. ugh!!!!!!


why do guys think that girls are so in love with them? arrogant much?

la lang. PBB hangover. haha!
time for a new template.
dear blogger,

i feel like i'm cheating on you with my tumblr. i'm sorry. it's just that tumblr's way easier and more fun to use. you know i tried to resist it, i've tried to for so long but i just couldn't. don't worry, you know i'll always come back to you, i always do, right?


haha. err.
vaio's touchpad: FAIL. err. i hate it. it's so hard to control, or maybe it's just me. love the keyboard, though.

scratch that. you need to use the function key for home and end, so nah. typing-wise, it's good. :D


if it keeps you around then i'm down.



This new age sign does not like to fight and it shows. They often get completely stepped on in life. The Aquarian is the optimistic, nice individual whose good graces are despised and taken advantage of. However, these master pushovers of the Zodiac must be admired for their ability to constantly be knocked down and get up and start again. They don’t let anyone daunt them psychologically and, for that, they must be admired. Some Aquarians resort to a bit of passive aggression, usually in the form of avoidance or changing the subject in order stay away from conflicts. Sometimes not showing up to the battle is one way to win it!


trying not to burp. afraid it'll be the trigger.
i didn't cry. on the contrary, i was very happy. still am.

my mom is really annoying when my dad's at home.


in a few hours, my dad'll be home.

and i just realized (that's 2 realizations in a day!), i haven't really talked or chat with my dad since i've found out about my exam results. and i don't really wonder why i didn't even try talking to him, coz i really don't want to. in a few hours, he'll be here. i hope i don't cry.
but sometimes i feel like this. it cant' be helped.

so i realized something this morning. uhm. just because some few people have their freaking heads all fucked up doesn't mean that the entire world is screwed. there are a lot of people who do beautiful things, good things. the world is not screwed. my faith in people is fully restored. hope floats.


i never really understood how some people do the things they do. war. beslan siege. mumbai terrorist attack. all those shit. and never has it crossed my mind that Filipinos could do this kind of shit. i was wrong. PUTANGINA. i really don't understand. i can't and i won't. what did those people do to deserve such things??? i really can't understand how because of politics, 50+ persons are brutally murdered. brutally murdered. putangina. i don't want to lose my faith in people's goodness but then things like this happen and i really don't know what to think anymore.



[this was a very long post after i got fed up and deleted it all. err!!!!!!!! grrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!]


my mom is addicted to facebook. err. i should not have taught her. now, she spends more time on the net than me. you know it's gotten really bad when that happens.



mi paborito (scuse my spanish eh?)

i carry your heart with me - e.e cummings

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
not fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)
Who will love you?
Who will fight?
Who will fall far behind?

-skinny love, bon i

i sooooooooooo love this song. i have it on repeat for two days now. hehe.
when she jumpled,
she probably thought she would fly.

-the virgin suicides
it's really not funny, sometimes.


will i ever like what i see?
the heart wants what it wants.


watched 2012 with my highschool buddies...if i weren't wearing mascara or if it isn't for the fact that i'm watching the movie with 3 guys, i would have totally cried my eyes out. that movie was scary!!!! don't even want to think about it ever happening. during the intense scenes i was screaming in my head "my Lord and my God!" SCARY. but i loved it.


sometimes you have to jump in the pool without your floaties on.
So as I'm writing about this, maybe you're writhing
about it too.
Are you out there? Can you find me?
Let's fall in love. I want to fall in love with you.

-Leanna Cortez
fall in the grave i've been digging myself
but there's room for two,
six feet under the stars

-six feet under the stars
i'm guilty but i'm safe for one more day

- six feet under the stars
pass me another bottle, honey
the Jager's so sweet
but if it keeps you around, then i'm down.

-six feet under the stars

yes this song. again. i fell. and bunch of others. new one's actually. love. it. am. i. annoying. you. with. all. my. periods?


falling in love. again.

with a song. been living off of purevolume since my external hd got corrupted, that's where i save my itunes; and my kuya lost my ipod which means there's absolutely no saving my 5000+ songs. (yea, 5000. but the ones i really really listen to could only be like 500 or less. haha)
hell you did. you really did. and i don't know if i should hate you for that. but even if i wanted to, i know i can't ever make myself. yea, you were that good at what you do. asshole. were you that bored?

waaaah!!!! pages of full awesomeness!!! watch!!!
why is it that there's only an "like this" button on fb? can't i not like? coz i really really don't like that. rrrr...
ok my heart flipped. it wasnt supposed to. wait. oh crap. now it's crushed. maraming salamat ah. tsss. haha


whoa. 11.11 pm. i get to have 1 wish, right? my heart jumped for a moment when i saw the time. yay me! ok here it is..*silent wish* ^^
i had the worst nightmare of my life last night. i woke up out of breath with my heart pounding right out of my chest. twas hella scary. im a having a test and the only face i could remember is charissa (my grade school classmate) who gave me a cheat sheet which is really weird coz she's the last person on earth that'll cheat, kaye who was out in the balcony copying things from the cheat sheet charissa gave me, and jhunmark who was dancing with kuya jun the proctor to distract him from the evil deed that we were doing. it felt like hours. if i hadn't woke up i'll probably be dead. mmm...

yea, those are my kind of nightmares thank you very much.
and now i wonder how i'm ever going to get my books back. meh.


i realize i don't recognize anyone, but i don't mind. -neighbors



you don't need it. let it go.

hmmm...is it just me or...nevermind
just read this. i lol-ed

procrastination is like masturbation, in the end you're just screwing yourself.


my dad is going home for a vacation. yay!!! and for the first time for as long as i can remember, he's going to spend Christmas and New Year with us. wow. i'm getting all choked up right now. wow. wow.



Communication. It’s the first thing we really learn in life. Funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking the harder it becomes to know what to say. Or how to ask for what we really need.
Greys Anatomy
when i turned off the tv, patd's new perspective is on. i turned the tv on 3 hours later and booyah, patd new perspective.
btw, those quotes are from a million little pieces by james frey
my new stash. and now i'm broke. :/
love means never having to say you're sorry
yea, i'm a gleek. haha.


i almost got lost in awesome makati. good thing the city is awesome, so it's almost but no. haha. stupid post.

am happy. =D
currently reading jane eyre. had to start over, i was already half way through but it just felt wrong to start from where i stopped. meh. i want a new book. a new one, as in N-E-W. not like the ones i buy in booksale. where's money when you really need it?
Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.”

-Mother Theresa
for some weird unexplicable moment, i felt really happy. goofy happy. i can't stop smiling kind of happy. heart beating fast kind of happy. i'm going to explode kind of happy. it was weird, but it felt good. i wish there could be more moments like this. inexplicably good moments. oh yea.
You Can't Direct the Wind but You Can Adjust the Sails.



i wish you'd come and tell me that, coz that would be so awesome. haha
so tell me darling do you wish we'd fall in love?

-owl city

owl city = love.

at least by me.


Anyone can give up, it’s the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that’s true strength.

-i still dunno

a reblog of my okl blog(post)
yes. dahil uso. i shall ride the wave. bow.

more quoted pix soon. hehe


could the moon be any rounder? could the sky be any clearer? what a great night. hope i had a better camera coz mine absolutely didn't give any justice on how beautiful the moon and the sky looked tonight.



i died. *swoon*

one of my fave works of pablo neruda. i've yet to find the compilation of all his poems. i think i've posted parts of this before, i can't really remember. spot my fave lines.


I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.
I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.
I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way
than this: where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.


ironic. i know. but after so many days? months? years? this is the only time i've been really happy. not in the laugh-out-loud kind of way but in the, how do i explain this? uhm, happy in the wow-im-not-alone-after-all kind of way. it kinda made me re-think about my plan to abandon all and start anew. a few are definitely worth keeping and sticking with. this thing turned out to be kind of a good thing after all. not entirely, but enough to make me realize so many things.

i've the best family. the best cousins. the best bunch of friends.

life is truly beautiful.

i could be happy.

but my mind is forever twisted. my heart forever stained.

*wow. emo. shet. no. just, NO. haha.

this is one embarrassing post which i shall cover with a whole lot of stupid post. hehe.
went to the mall pala today with my kuya and mom. i segued to bestsellers coz i got a little bored (i was going to buy a screen protector for my cam but blah), and boy what goodness have i found! (but didn't buy. err) i found wuthering heights & jane austen's books with really cute covers on! but twas so expensive that even if i really wanted to buy it right then and there, i wont be able to. it cost way more than what i have in my purse. someday. someday. someday. all the books that i want. someday.

i can't wait for someday.
so it's halloween. was halloween. i've always had fond memories of my brother and i during halloween. and as what i can distinctly remember, it almost always include the tv program "magandang gabi, bayan". good times.



haha! my girlfriends are the best! i wish they know how awesome they are and how thankful i am that they're a part of my life. they sure know how to make me laugh. how i wish they're here with me. sleepover, i miss. reji, magbilang anghel ka. bahahaha! rej, you made me lol, that's the fourth tonight. i think. hehe
oh ron, watapeys. and harry, wut the hell? haha
loled. third time.
wait for me. i just have to finish this thing i've started and then i'm gone.


not trying to make an excuse here or anything. read this on aja's tumblog and it made me smile.

19. Every time you sneeze some of your brain cells die.


credit: allineeded

the second thing that made me laugh tonight. second to khaye na baliw. hehe

as quickly as it came, suddenly it's gone.

ok na. mabilis ang tama, walang hangover. salamat po. i know.
i think the day i was born was my brother's worst nightmare. he always get blamed because of me. i've no intention whatsoever to make his life miserable, i love my brother, he's the only one i have(and i'm the only sister he's got, too). i pray for him everynight. i hope he doesn't hate me.



Thinking back when we first met
I remember what you said
You said you'd never leave me
I let go of your hand
Built my castle in the sand
But now I'm reachin' out again
And I'm not letting go
Till you

Hold me
Mold me
Sometimes I feel so all alone
See, I gotta find my way back home
So why don't you
Shape me
make me
Wash me whiter than the snow
I gotta find my way
Back home

Master upon my knees i pray
I just want to be the clay
Put your arms around me
Place my life in your hands
Lord, I know I'm just a man
I know you understand
This time I'm not letting go
Till you

Anoint me
Appoint me
Sometimes I feel so alone
See, I gotta find my way back home
So why don't you
Chastise me
Baptize me
Wash me whiter than the snow
I gotta find my way

'Cause I'm lost and alone
I've been wandering
Long enough to know
Humbly I search for you
And I'm not gonna rest
Till you

Choose me
Use me
Sometimes I feel so alone
I'm on my way back home

So why don't you
Direct me
Bless me
Wash me whiter then the snow
I'm on my way
Back home
i'm shaking and i have no idea why. i kinda do. but it's weird coz i woke and i wasn't even thinking about it, suddenly my hands were shaking. and now that i i've thought about it, im kinda nervous. just a little. i know for certain that the nervousness comes from looking at the wrong list of board exam passers. yea i know, i'm crap. haha.

come to Me and i will give you rest.

hawak ko na. matagal na. dati pa inaasam asam ko na. nalalasahan ko na nga eh. parang hangin na din na hinihinga ko. natural lang. hawak hawak ko na. inangkin ko na. ngayon, malapit na, hawak ko pa kaya? akin na to eh. pero kung di para sakin, ayus lang, kaya ko bitawan. meron naman pong next time. basta malaki lang pasasalamat ko na nung binigay ko sa Inyo, kinuha Ninyo at pinagaan kalooban ko. at least hindi na siya mabigat. totoo nga talaga. Kayo na po ang bahala. kinakabog po ako, natural lang naman yun diba?
Do you know the most surprising thing about heartache? It doesn’t actually kill you. Like a bullet to the heart, or a head-on car wreck, it should. When someone you’ve promised to cherish forever says, “I never loved you,” it should kill you instantly. You shouldn’t have to wake up day after day after that, trying to understand how in the world you didn’t know.

grabbed from standverystill.


Man, I know how you feel—third wheel. I have been the third wheel so many times in my life…my mom told me something once that made me feel a lot better. She said the third wheel is what makes it a tricycle.

— Michael Scott


for fear you will be alone

For fear you will be alone
you do so many things
that aren’t you at all.

— richard brautigan

There are people who deserve you and people who don’t. If you have someone in your life who takes you for granted or doesn’t give you the respect that you deserve, leave them in the past where they belong. Surround yourself with people who challenge your mind and bring out the best in you. As for the ones who only exist to bring you down or cheapen your potential; let them find people who are better-suited to their own qualities and principles. Hold yourself to the highest standard possible. People who don’t measure up don’t deserve your time. People who can’t see past their own cowardice or their own arrogance don’t deserve your time. Anyone who doesn’t treat you the way you treat yourself doesn’t deserve your time. And if you are treating yourself in a way that gives people permission to take advantage of you, start showing yourself the exact same respect that you should be demanding of everyone else.

grabbed from styleandsubstance.

this made me cry. if i become somebody else, will things be different? if i go to some far off place, will i be the somebody that i wanted to be? these thoughts never leave my head. and it's sad, coz it shouldn't be there in the first place. someday, i wish to be really happy. as in truly, truly happy down to my bones. i wonder if people ever experience that kind of happiness. i wish they do. i wish we all do.


It's only after we've lost everything that we're free to do anything.

-fight club

i've already watched the movie but i've yet to read the book.
looking forward to a movie with khaye or rej next week. i do have a life after all. :D

a time to be alone.
a time to ponder.
a time to relax.
a time to be silent.
a time to catch up with my readings.
a time to just stop and look at the clouds, the stars.
a time to be with my thoughts.
a time to wait.

i hope things turn out ok for all of us.

it's official, i'm back. back in the circle of no life. now i dunno if being back's a good thing or not.



mga Pilipino, kayang kaya naten to. kailan ba nagkaron ng pagkakataon na nawalan tayo ng pag-asa. wala. hindi Niya tayo pababayaan. kayang kaya naten to.
it really suck to be ok when people you care for and everyone else are not.

i thought floods like the one manila had only happens in provinces. i never thought manila could experience anything like this.


help. (grabbed from pinoytumblr.)

Rescue Operations

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  9. Bureau of Fire Protection Region III (Central Luzon) Hotline: (+63245-9634376)
  10. Senator Dick Gordon (+639178997898, +63938-444BOYS, +632-9342118, +632-4338528)
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Civil Society/ Media

  1. Philippine National Red Cross (143, +632-5270000)
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  3. Go to GMA Facebook page & post complete addresses and names of people in need of immediate help.
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All calls for help, please help us by filling out information here at the Rescue InfoHub Center.


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Power Supply

  • Meralco (+63917-5592824, 16211, +63920-9292824) If you want service cut off to your area to prevent fires and electrocution.

Relief Aid and Donations


FOUR trucks waiting in Ateneo to leave for Cainta/Marikina but so far donations only fill HALF a truck. Please donate. Thank You!

  1. Victory Fort is opening its doors to those affected by the typhoon. Call 813-FORT.
  2. NoyMar relief Operations: Clare Amador (+639285205508) or Jana Vicente at +639285205499). Drop off for relief donations is at Balay Expo Center across Farmers Market Cubao.
  3. Miriam Quiambao drop off points: One Orchard Road Building in Eastwood, or message http://www.twitter.com/miriamq for more details.
  4. Philippine Army Gym inside Fort Bonifacio or GHQ Gym in Camp Aguinaldo are now distributing donations for Ondoy Victims.
  5. Team Manila stores in Trinoma, Mall of Asia, Jupiter Bel-Air and Rockwell shall be accepting relief goods (Canned Goods, Ready-to-drink Milk,Bottled Water and Clothes) for distribution by Veritas.
  6. Caritas Manila Office at Jesus St., Pandacan Manila near Nagtahan Bridge (+632-5639298, +632-5639308)
  7. Radio Veritas at Veritas Tower West Ave. Cor EDSA (+632-9257931-40)
  8. Aranaz Stores in Rockwell & Greenbelt is accepting donations of any kind for Payatas communities affected by Ondoy
  9. Simbahang Lingkod ng Bayan Task Force Noah, a disaster response arm of the Jesuits, is accepting donations. Please drop it off sa Ateneo Cervini Dorm.
  10. Philippine National Red Crossdifferent ways to Donate.
  11. Red Cross Load Donations: Right now the easiest way to make donations from the seat of your chair is via mobile phone load. The Red Cross Rescue and Relief Operations. Text: REDAMOUNT to 2899 (Globe) or 4483 (Smart)
  12. Ateneo de Manila University is now accepting donations for the victims of Ondoy. Donations can be dropped at MVP Lobby. For those stranded/those who need help: To all students who need help or know of people who need help. Please text the name, location, and contact number to (+6329088877166). ATENEO, which is now an open shelter, accepts refugees. Call (+632917-8952792)
  13. Papemelroti stores in 91 Roces Ave. / Ali Mall Cubao / SM City North EDSA / SM Fairview / SM Megamall / Glorietta 3 in Makati / SM Centerpoint / SM Southmall are accepting relief goods (canned goods / milk / bottled water / clothes – NO CASH pls.)
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  15. Our Lady of Pentecost Parish (+632-4342397, +632-9290665) per Gabe Mercado, donations are very much welcome. The Parish is located at 12 F. Dela Rosa corner C. Salvador Sts., Loyola Heights, Quezon City.
  16. Hillsborough Village Chapel – Water, blankets, shoes, and clothes may be sent to Hillsborough Village Chapel in Muntinlupa City. These will go to families whose houses were washed out in the nearby sitios.
  17. Greenhills/Mandaluyong/San Juan Area, if you want to help out with the rescue and relief operations, you can drop off your donations (clothes, food, etc..) at La Salle Greenhills Gate 2 tomorrow or volunteer from 9am to receive, sort, repack the donations.
  18. LUCA stores (Rockwell, Shang-rila, Eastwood, or GA towers): Send your old clothes & donations (no cash pls).
  19. “LUZON RELIEF: Volunteer / Donate / Pray”: Donations can be brought to RENAISSANCE FITNESS CENTER, 2nd Floor, Bramante Building, Renaissance Towers Ortigas, Meralco Avenue, Pasig City starting MONDAY (Sept.28) / 9am – 7pm Contact Person: Warren Habaluyas (+632929-8713488) or email atluzonrelief@gmail.com
  20. MOONSHINE boutique in Rockwell also accepting relief good to help Ondoy victims in Marikina and Cainta.
  21. Katipunan Avenue. Contact Erica Paredes at (+632917-4741930) — they need bread, packed juice, sandwich filling (tuna, chicken, anything) You can help her make them, deliver the sandwiches to her house, or help her distribute! Call for more details.
  22. Manor Superclub, Eastwood City will accept goods and other emergency items starting Sunday at 10 am.
  23. Citizens Disaster Response Center (CDRC): Relief goods for typhoon victims being accepted at 72-A Times St., West Triangle, QC. Tel (+632-9299820/22)
  24. MINISTOP IBARRA (Espana cor. Blumentritt, Sampaloc Manila) is also accepting relief goods, Food (non-perishable goods only) Clothing, Medicines, Beds, Pillows, Blankets, Emergency Supplies to help Typhoon Ondoy victims.
  25. Whitespace 2314 Chino Roces Ave Ext as a Mkt drop-off for relief goods.
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  27. AKBAYAN’s taking donations, call 433-69-33/433-68-31 to donate or volunteer.
  28. Worldvision Foundation is also accepting donations/volunteers to pack relief goods in QC. For $donations, BPI:USDacct #4254-0050-08
  29. Xavier School in San Juan is now accepting donations, please bring to Multipurpose Center (MPC).
  30. ABS-CBN through Banco de Oro account number 56300-20111 account name: ABS-CBN Foundation Incorporation
  31. Move for Chiz is asking for volunteers at Bay Park Tent, along Roxas Blvd., beside Max Restaurant and Diamond Hotel in Manila, or at Gilas Minipark at Unang Hakbang St., Gilas Q.C.
  32. Sen. Kiko Pangilinan is accepting donations @ AGS Bldg Annex, 446 EDSA Guadalupe Viejo. Contact Vina Vargas at (+632917-8081247)
  33. Operation Rainbow (Zac Faelnar Camara) at Ayala Alabang Village needs Canned Goods, Ready-To-Eat Food, Bottled Water, Ready-To-Drink Milk/ Juice, Clothing, Blankets, contact (+632-4687991)
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  36. PLAYSCHOOL INTERNATIONAL in Better Living is open to receive relief goods. Feel free to drop it there for your convenience. No Cash Pls.
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People Tracker (using your phones, get your friends and family to turn on their finderservice for you)

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*MRT and LRT are open 24 hours today. (Edit: 09/27 MRT today is at Php 10)

I got this map from Help “Ondoy” Victims in the Philippines. I can’t help but be amazed at this map made by a private citizen based on news from TV, radio, internet, etc. If he can do it, it makes me think and ask if the government uses these kinds of technology. GIS? I hope they do.

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May idadagdag pa ba kayo?


been feeling slightly, uhm no, very off since last friday. my head feels stuffy and i can't seem to function and focus well on my studying. err. so my mom bought me a book that i've been trying to find since i've read about it. the perks of being a wallflower. finished it for about 2 or so hours, with breaks in between. twas such an awesome book, made me realize even more of how messed up i am. crap. anyways, im aint here to talk about that. just wanted to note that i should've felt bad about reading something not related to study. i should've but i didn't. twas the best i've felt since i've started reviewing. i got to read something that doesn't involve capacitors or antennas or ideal gasses or equations of lines, and i felt really good. good book + good feeling + slightly good coffee = very good day (minus the stuffy head).

still feel off. can't seem to make myself study. but i have to. and if i want to gain something, i should push myself. coz no one else is gon' do that but me. so after i post this i'm off to my room, sit on my very uncomfortable chair and start answering some questions. and i promise i won't play with my new cam, which came last saturday, and which i love so much. hehe. ta-ta!


study break. (yea, i choose to do this on my study break. can you say 'get a life?'. ugh!)

just want to share my current fave song coz it's freakinly awesome.

fireflies by owl city

You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep
Cuz they fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You think me rude, but I would just stand and stare

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
Cuz everything is never as it seems

Cuz I get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they try to teach me how to dance
A foxtrot above my head
A sockhop beneath my bed
The disco ball is just hanging by a thread (thread, thread)

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
Cuz everything is never as it seems (when I fall asleep)

Leave my door open just a crack
(Please take me away from here)
Cuz I feel like such an insomniac
(Please take me away from here)
Why do I tire of counting sheep?
(Please take me away from here)
When I'm far to tired to fall asleep

To ten million fireflies
I'm weird cuz I hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell (said farewell)
But I know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre
Cuz I saved a few and I keep 'em in a jar

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
Cuz everything is never as it seems (when I fall asleep)

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
Cuz everything is never as it seems (when I fall asleep)

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
Because my dreams are bursting at the seams


really great song. can't stop listening! ok im out!
cooking rice on this very early tuesday morning. have to, if i want to eat, i'm the only one who's awake. haven't eaten a thing since i fell asleep 12 hours ago, it's 537am btw. 537-12hours. you do the math. batugan. haha. hmmm. crap. my mind just went blank. i've nothing more to say. sheeez, am i that hungry?


quick blog.

love fob's donnie what a catch.

sucks that ryan ross and jon walker left panic at the disco. brendon and spencer are still awesome.

comms suck. bigtime

wasn't able to see the meteor shower last night. but it's all good, meteor shower followed me in my dreams.

i've two freakinly awesome LSS. fireflies by owl city and red lipstick by sd(?). love it.


quick blog over. gotta gos cheerios!


OO! ANG TAMAD KO NGAYON! OO NAAA! NAMUMURYOT AKO!!! not just coz today has been very unproductive (mejo harsh ata un) but also coz this stupid data recovery thingy can't seem to recover all my mp3s. all 5000+ of it. ugh!!!!!! i hate my external hd. ugh!!!! nakakamuryot talaga. sinayang ko na nga ang araw ko sa pag ayos ng shit na to pero mukang 1037 lang ang mga mp3 na marerecover ko. 1037 na kantang ayoko!!! naknampucha!!! demmit!
haay. para san ba ulet tong ginagawa ko? ay oo nga pala. pero crap kase eh. sa tingin ko masama to. baket? mas naiisip ko na, crap ang stupid ko. is that license worth it? is it worth this feeling of stupidness and dumbness and all word related to those? is it really? tae. sino ba kaseng nakaisip non. pero on the positive side, at least i'm striving for something again. i have a goal again. that's a good thing.

i want to be somewhere no one knows me or speak languages i know. i want to be somewhere strange. somewhere different. neverwhere? wherever is good. new beginnings. new people. new friends. new surroundings. new perspective. new everything. kahit ano, basta. hehe. pero wanting that is useless unless i pass the stupid exam, coz i wont move, i wont go anywhere until i do. so hopefully, one time ko lang siya gagawin. i believe. i do. wee? di nga? oo nga. ugh! ayan ka nanaman kinakausap sarile. haha! I BELIEVE!!!!

napaka unproductive ng pesteng araw na to. blame it on the weather? hindi na. nothing, no one to blame but me. bago ko tong gawain. to stop blaming things or whatever and take the responsibilities. naks. parang ganda noh? ehehe

haay. been listening to two same songs since this morning. WHY CAN'T WE BE FRIENDS by WAR and YOU BELONG WITH ME by TAYLOR SWIFT. lss.


All this time how could you not know baby,
You belong with me

-you belong with me, taylor swift


The view of Cory’s coffin taken from the Aquino family van.
credit: padayon
credit: joserizal

today, a great woman was laid to rest. thank you president cory. you will be remembered. thank you. if not for you, we would've still been under a very scary government.

it's times like these that makes me real proud to be a Filipino. it's times like these that makes me truly believe that there is hope for our forsaken country, that people are not apathetic to what's going on. it makes be believe that someday, things will be different here; that one day there will be change. yea, change. i know it's kinda overused, you know, with the obama election, but it's really what we need, what we all need. change.

i used to be apathetic about politics and my country and everything. things change. i am no longer apathetic. i refuse to be a casualty of apathy. i will make change, in my own little way.

i'm so proud of my people right now, if only it could be like this all the time - people coming together being human. get it? coz sometimes people forget to be human and thats what makes them suck.


blog break over. gott go back to studying.

wait, brain nugget. i wish there'd be that much people on my funeral.


credit: juju_bug

oh crap. yea, i think i do but in reality, i don't. i really don't.
notice how i've been updating since the other day? that's what i call procrastination. well, not really. i do it on my spare time. not that i have any! ugh!!!! why am i still here?!

ps: my external hard disk got corrupted again. my precious files are all in there. help? anyone?


The only way of knowing a person is to love them without hope.

-Walter Benjamin

here's another one with daniel radcliffe. haha!


and the thought(s) continue...

i hate pageant moms. they should be shot. if i could slit their throats, i would. i hate them for what they make their kids go through. i saw this pageant mom favoring one kid than the other. the kids are twins. its heartbreaking the way the other kid says that she hates competing with her sister coz it's hard to win. disgusting how the mom says that the other daughter is more charming and other shiz like that. ugh!


Ako sila'y nandito na
Ikaw na lang ang kulang
Anong lunod o lalim ba't 'di na lang lumutang
Anong pait ang matamis at aking susubukan
Anong silbi ng narito
'Di mo na kailangan

-SANA, Up Dharma Down



ever felt out of place. like no matter what you do, no matter how "in" you are with your crowd, you're just so...out. its the worst feeling ever. well, one of the worst. major suckage.



ever been too sleepy but you just can't fall asleep coz your body just wont let you? another suckage. that's what im feeling right now. add a stuffy nose, dry eyes and a really bad headache. voila! s-u-c-k-a-g-e.



ever want to read a book but you can't coz if you do, you won't be able to stop? ugh! need i say that that's a suckage?



ever liked someone but you can't tell that person coz you're afraid that you'd look and sound stupid. ha! major major suckage.



this is the part where my head goes blank.


the train of thought won't stop. but my eyes can't take it anymore so i have to stop. ta-ta!
so i totally missed the partial lunar eclipse this morning. found out when i got home. how come i didn't even know it?!! ugh! it's gon' be 20+ years before it happen again. boohoo!

this is really beautiful. read.

If you pick me a flower, I’ll wear it in my hair. I’ll stash little notes for you where you least expect them. I don’t have many firsts left.. but I’d like someone who I could offer all of my lasts. We’ll make history together. I’ll wait for you even if you’re late – and I won’t complain about it. Kindness to cashiers, valets, waiters and maddeningly slow postal clerks who would try the patience of Gandhi is a must. I will feel safe and most at peace in your arms. When you’re counting aloud, I will try and mess you up. I find you magically delicious. I will let you be right when it doesn’t really matter. I’ll giggle when you show off and I know it’s just for me. I’ll hold your coffee while you drive. I can build a fire without burning the house down. If you wash the car with me – I promise to wear a white t-shirt for you. I‘ll hide around corners and try to scare you in the middle of the night.. of course, I’ll end up scaring myself and you’ll have to calm me down. I can change a flat tire and my own oil. It’s the simple things you do that make me swoon the most. I love it when you sing to me. I’ll make you mickey mouse pancakes. Sleeping in has a whole new meaning now that we’re doing it together. I’ll cover you up and kiss your forehead when you fall asleep watching tv. I won’t swear around your family or make you wear silly sweaters at my family’s during Christmas. I’ll grant you three wishes. I’ll make you laugh. I’ll stare in wonder with you at that hot chick with the great rack. I will marvel at your strength. I’ll take care of you when you’re sick. I give a kick ass massage. I think it’s hot when you come home all dirty from playing or working hard. My heart will skip every time you walk through the door. My kisses will take your breath away – seriously. I’ll giggle if you leave your socks on in bed. My quirks and oddities have been deemed ‘adorable’ and I will love you more everyday for all of yours. I’ll hold you when you need it. I will give you space when you need it. I will let you be you. You’ll sleep better when I’m next to you. I’ll thank you every time you open a door for me. I’ll never give you shit in front of your friends. I won’t ever let you leave for work in the morning without your lunch and a passionate kiss. We can watch your movie first. I’ll clean the house perfectly every time your mom comes by. I like horror movies only when you’re with me and only as long as you hold me close. I don’t litter. I love when you pull me down to sit on your lap. I love it when you lay your head on my chest in bed. I can be ready (shower and all) in half an hour. I’ll look cute as hell in your shirt in the morning. I can balance a checkbook. I can never turn down a challenge. I’ll fit perfectly in your arms. I’ll understand if you get jealous – and do my best to show you that you have no reason. Hand-written love notes will get you laid every time. I can totally keep a secret. I’m pretty damn funny and will do anything to make you laugh. You will always look hot to me in the morning. I think it’s cute when you eat off my plate. When you’re sleeping, I’ll try to stay quiet. I’ll call when I say I will. Treat me like a woamn and I’ll treat you like a man. To clarify: I’m not looking for a savior, a fix-up project, or anything of that sort. I’m looking for a man who quite simply adds something extraordinary and special to my life. And I to him. A fair exchange, an amazing mind, body and soul connection and a place to build something magnificent.

— Unknown

i cried. fo' realz.

did i mention that i just watched hp6 last monday? i did? no? well whatever, i just want to remind myself again, coz really, it was good. ron weasley is just too adorable!!! i so love him!!! haha!


the best feeling in the world is not falling in love. it’s finally falling out of love with someone who never loved you.

-someone i don't know


i just had the weirdest dream ever. you were in it. shit. you weren't supposed to be. this isn't happening. you have to stop. just stop. please. you're too much you know? dreams like that don't come very often. it was nice. if only. unfortunately, that'll never happen. err.




i still have too much too read. TOO MUCH. have to wake up by 5am. *sigh* why am i doing this again? oh yea, i remember. so i could get a stupid piece of paper that'll make me, i dunno, someone. as if.

ok, im doing it all wrong. im supposed to be psyching myself up not making me feel worse than i am now. err. it doesn't help that it's raining pretty hard outside and the wind is howling like a mad cow, or something. the freaking weather is making me gloomy!!! how am i supposed to make myself get up tomorrow?aaaarrrrgggghhh!!! i'm going insane!
The only way to find true happiness is to risk being completely cut open.

-Chuck Palahniuk

oh. ok. hmmm. that suck. coz if that's true, then i don't know if i'll ever be trylly happy. suckage.


If you enter this world knowing you are loved and you leave this world knowing the same, then everything that happens in between can be dealt with.

-Michael Jackson


The worst lies are the lies we tell ourselves. We live in denial of what we do, even what we think. We do this because we’re afraid. We fear we will not find love, and when we find it we fear we’ll lose it. We fear that if we do not have love we will be unhappy.

-Richard Bach


Believe in yourself and all that you are. Know there is something inside you that is greater than any obstacle.

-Christian Larsen


i want to write down my heart, but words simply aren't enough. so just look at me and i hope that you'll just see. :D


"What if a demon were to creep after you one night, in your loneliest loneliness, and say, ‘This life which you live must be lived by you once again and innumerable times more; and every pain and joy and thought and sigh must come again to you, all in the same sequence. The eternal hourglass will again and again be turned and you with it, dust of the dust!’ Would you throw yourself down and gnash your teeth and curse that demon? Or would you answer, ‘Never have I heard anything more divine’?”

— Friedrich Nietzsche


"so you think you’re a failure, do you? Well, you probably are. What’s wrong with that? In the first place, if you’ve any sense at all you must have learned by now that we pay just as dearly for our triumphs as we do for our defeats. Go ahead and fail. But fail with wit, fail with grace, fail with style. A mediocre failure is as insufferable as a mediocre success. Embrace failure! Seek it out. Learn to love it. That may be the only way ay of us will ever be free.”

— Even Cowgirls Get The Blues, Tom Robbins


Life is too short, or too long, for me to allow myself the luxury of living it so badly.

-paulo coehlo.


got this from marlon.

a thankful heart is a happy heart.

what? am i not thankful enough? how thankful do i have to be?
i feel like i need to get out of here. fast. away from everyone. now.


ohaithere! xP


travis mccoy is here in manila and he's going to places that musicians never goes to. squatter's area. what an amazing guy.


michael jackson is all over the net and television. i kept hearing/reading that he had an untimely death. untimely death. when is death untimely? as far as i know, death comes like a thief in the night so we should always be prepared. maybe it was, maybe it wasn't. i dunno. just thinking.

anyhoo, i had so much fun today! i love my friends!

and oh! why do you make drinking beer look so hot?!! it's not even good, you on the other hand, look very very good. hahahahahaha! lets go back to highschool. haha


ulul! feeling! wag ka nga dito, you don't belong here! douche!

they make you laugh even if you try hard to not want to coz you kept thinking that you don't deserve it (or coz you're just to emo and feels like the world is against you even if it's not.).


Breakfast by Jacques Prévert

He poured the coffee
Into the cup
He poured the milk
Into the cup of coffee
He added the sugar
To the coffee and milk
He stirred it
With a teaspoon
He drank the coffee
And put back the cup
Without speaking to me
He lit a cigarette
He blew some rings
With the smoke
He flicked the ashes
Into the ashtray
Without speaking to me
Without looking at me
He got up
He put his hat
On his head
He put on
His raincoat
Because it was raining
He went out
Into the rain
Without a word
Without looking at me
And I
I took my head
In my hands
And I wept

mj is dead. he's a freak and all but hey, you have to admit, he's a pretty good singer/performer. i'm a fan. :D
i want a new book. new as in new, not the ones bought in the second hand bookstore. though i love the smell of old books, i love the smell of new books more. i want a new book!!! i can't stand entering nbs and not buy anything! ugh!
"it's sweet when someone knows every detail of you not because you keep on reminding them but because they pay attention"

i paid attention. i really did. so i guess that makes me the sweetest person in the world. but i bet you never noticed. i remember everything you told me, every word, every gestures. and it worries me sometimes. i wonder if you're ok, how you're holding up. and it's not in that kind of way, not anymore, i'm all past that. i worry for you as a friend. a friend you seem to have forgotten. well it has been really nice, being friends that is. thanks. :D


eh kung ikaw kaya!!!


shet naiiyak ako. tae.


tangina. bakit sobrang nakakagalet pag nakakabasa/nakakarinig ako ng mga pilipino na nangbabash ng kapwa pilipino? shouldn't we be sticking together? ang gagaling nio kase, you think you're all better than others. buset!


we all get to that point sometimes. the point where we start asking questions. about our self, our life, where we are, where we're headed. those stuff. we may not be able to find the answers we want but rest assured, we will learn something. that something may not be life changing, but it's something we never knew before we started searching, right?

la lang. just feeling contemplative. :|

one of my fave commercials

"12 lang ang napili sa tryout, pang 13 ako. Practice ako ng practice. May uniform nako. ‘Nay bakit?"



credit: weheartit

i dunno if this is cute or freaky. haha. the hippos definitely look freaky.
credit: weheartit


credit: kitchen wench


credit: weheartit

ke ai!