what do you do when you don't feel like doing something even when this something is THE something? do you quit? or do you make yourself want to do it? what if you want to do it but you don't really feel it. you know that feeling in your gut when you really want something? what if it's not there? what do you do? what should i do? i've wanted this for the longest time. for as long as i can remember, but my gut doesn't seem to feel the same way. what if i force this and i fail? what if? what? oh crap.