24.7.09

credit: juju_bug


oh crap. yea, i think i do but in reality, i don't. i really don't.
notice how i've been updating since the other day? that's what i call procrastination. well, not really. i do it on my spare time. not that i have any! ugh!!!! why am i still here?!

ps: my external hard disk got corrupted again. my precious files are all in there. help? anyone?

quote.

The only way of knowing a person is to love them without hope.

-Walter Benjamin


here's another one with daniel radcliffe. haha!

22.7.09

and the thought(s) continue...

i hate pageant moms. they should be shot. if i could slit their throats, i would. i hate them for what they make their kids go through. i saw this pageant mom favoring one kid than the other. the kids are twins. its heartbreaking the way the other kid says that she hates competing with her sister coz it's hard to win. disgusting how the mom says that the other daughter is more charming and other shiz like that. ugh!

lyrics.

Ako sila'y nandito na
Ikaw na lang ang kulang
Anong lunod o lalim ba't 'di na lang lumutang
Anong pait ang matamis at aking susubukan
Anong silbi ng narito
'Di mo na kailangan

-SANA, Up Dharma Down

thoughts.

1.

ever felt out of place. like no matter what you do, no matter how "in" you are with your crowd, you're just so...out. its the worst feeling ever. well, one of the worst. major suckage.

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2.

ever been too sleepy but you just can't fall asleep coz your body just wont let you? another suckage. that's what im feeling right now. add a stuffy nose, dry eyes and a really bad headache. voila! s-u-c-k-a-g-e.

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3.

ever want to read a book but you can't coz if you do, you won't be able to stop? ugh! need i say that that's a suckage?

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4.

ever liked someone but you can't tell that person coz you're afraid that you'd look and sound stupid. ha! major major suckage.

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5.

this is the part where my head goes blank.



ugh!

the train of thought won't stop. but my eyes can't take it anymore so i have to stop. ta-ta!
so i totally missed the partial lunar eclipse this morning. found out when i got home. how come i didn't even know it?!! ugh! it's gon' be 20+ years before it happen again. boohoo!

this is really beautiful. read.

If you pick me a flower, I’ll wear it in my hair. I’ll stash little notes for you where you least expect them. I don’t have many firsts left.. but I’d like someone who I could offer all of my lasts. We’ll make history together. I’ll wait for you even if you’re late – and I won’t complain about it. Kindness to cashiers, valets, waiters and maddeningly slow postal clerks who would try the patience of Gandhi is a must. I will feel safe and most at peace in your arms. When you’re counting aloud, I will try and mess you up. I find you magically delicious. I will let you be right when it doesn’t really matter. I’ll giggle when you show off and I know it’s just for me. I’ll hold your coffee while you drive. I can build a fire without burning the house down. If you wash the car with me – I promise to wear a white t-shirt for you. I‘ll hide around corners and try to scare you in the middle of the night.. of course, I’ll end up scaring myself and you’ll have to calm me down. I can change a flat tire and my own oil. It’s the simple things you do that make me swoon the most. I love it when you sing to me. I’ll make you mickey mouse pancakes. Sleeping in has a whole new meaning now that we’re doing it together. I’ll cover you up and kiss your forehead when you fall asleep watching tv. I won’t swear around your family or make you wear silly sweaters at my family’s during Christmas. I’ll grant you three wishes. I’ll make you laugh. I’ll stare in wonder with you at that hot chick with the great rack. I will marvel at your strength. I’ll take care of you when you’re sick. I give a kick ass massage. I think it’s hot when you come home all dirty from playing or working hard. My heart will skip every time you walk through the door. My kisses will take your breath away – seriously. I’ll giggle if you leave your socks on in bed. My quirks and oddities have been deemed ‘adorable’ and I will love you more everyday for all of yours. I’ll hold you when you need it. I will give you space when you need it. I will let you be you. You’ll sleep better when I’m next to you. I’ll thank you every time you open a door for me. I’ll never give you shit in front of your friends. I won’t ever let you leave for work in the morning without your lunch and a passionate kiss. We can watch your movie first. I’ll clean the house perfectly every time your mom comes by. I like horror movies only when you’re with me and only as long as you hold me close. I don’t litter. I love when you pull me down to sit on your lap. I love it when you lay your head on my chest in bed. I can be ready (shower and all) in half an hour. I’ll look cute as hell in your shirt in the morning. I can balance a checkbook. I can never turn down a challenge. I’ll fit perfectly in your arms. I’ll understand if you get jealous – and do my best to show you that you have no reason. Hand-written love notes will get you laid every time. I can totally keep a secret. I’m pretty damn funny and will do anything to make you laugh. You will always look hot to me in the morning. I think it’s cute when you eat off my plate. When you’re sleeping, I’ll try to stay quiet. I’ll call when I say I will. Treat me like a woamn and I’ll treat you like a man. To clarify: I’m not looking for a savior, a fix-up project, or anything of that sort. I’m looking for a man who quite simply adds something extraordinary and special to my life. And I to him. A fair exchange, an amazing mind, body and soul connection and a place to build something magnificent.

— Unknown


i cried. fo' realz.


did i mention that i just watched hp6 last monday? i did? no? well whatever, i just want to remind myself again, coz really, it was good. ron weasley is just too adorable!!! i so love him!!! haha!

quote.

the best feeling in the world is not falling in love. it’s finally falling out of love with someone who never loved you.

-someone i don't know

21.7.09

i just had the weirdest dream ever. you were in it. shit. you weren't supposed to be. this isn't happening. you have to stop. just stop. please. you're too much you know? dreams like that don't come very often. it was nice. if only. unfortunately, that'll never happen. err.

16.7.09

phewshhhh!!!

11.01pm

i still have too much too read. TOO MUCH. have to wake up by 5am. *sigh* why am i doing this again? oh yea, i remember. so i could get a stupid piece of paper that'll make me, i dunno, someone. as if.










ok, im doing it all wrong. im supposed to be psyching myself up not making me feel worse than i am now. err. it doesn't help that it's raining pretty hard outside and the wind is howling like a mad cow, or something. the freaking weather is making me gloomy!!! how am i supposed to make myself get up tomorrow?aaaarrrrgggghhh!!! i'm going insane!
The only way to find true happiness is to risk being completely cut open.

-Chuck Palahniuk



oh. ok. hmmm. that suck. coz if that's true, then i don't know if i'll ever be trylly happy. suckage.

quote.

If you enter this world knowing you are loved and you leave this world knowing the same, then everything that happens in between can be dealt with.

-Michael Jackson

quote.

The worst lies are the lies we tell ourselves. We live in denial of what we do, even what we think. We do this because we’re afraid. We fear we will not find love, and when we find it we fear we’ll lose it. We fear that if we do not have love we will be unhappy.

-Richard Bach

quote.

Believe in yourself and all that you are. Know there is something inside you that is greater than any obstacle.

-Christian Larsen

15.7.09

i want to write down my heart, but words simply aren't enough. so just look at me and i hope that you'll just see. :D

quote.

"What if a demon were to creep after you one night, in your loneliest loneliness, and say, ‘This life which you live must be lived by you once again and innumerable times more; and every pain and joy and thought and sigh must come again to you, all in the same sequence. The eternal hourglass will again and again be turned and you with it, dust of the dust!’ Would you throw yourself down and gnash your teeth and curse that demon? Or would you answer, ‘Never have I heard anything more divine’?”

— Friedrich Nietzsche

quote.

"so you think you’re a failure, do you? Well, you probably are. What’s wrong with that? In the first place, if you’ve any sense at all you must have learned by now that we pay just as dearly for our triumphs as we do for our defeats. Go ahead and fail. But fail with wit, fail with grace, fail with style. A mediocre failure is as insufferable as a mediocre success. Embrace failure! Seek it out. Learn to love it. That may be the only way ay of us will ever be free.”

— Even Cowgirls Get The Blues, Tom Robbins

quote.

Life is too short, or too long, for me to allow myself the luxury of living it so badly.

-paulo coehlo.



14.7.09

got this from marlon.

a thankful heart is a happy heart.


what? am i not thankful enough? how thankful do i have to be?
i feel like i need to get out of here. fast. away from everyone. now.

6.7.09

ohaithere! xP