i still have too much too read. TOO MUCH. have to wake up by 5am. *sigh* why am i doing this again? oh yea, i remember. so i could get a stupid piece of paper that'll make me, i dunno, someone. as if.

ok, im doing it all wrong. im supposed to be psyching myself up not making me feel worse than i am now. err. it doesn't help that it's raining pretty hard outside and the wind is howling like a mad cow, or something. the freaking weather is making me gloomy!!! how am i supposed to make myself get up tomorrow?aaaarrrrgggghhh!!! i'm going insane!