25.8.09

been feeling slightly, uhm no, very off since last friday. my head feels stuffy and i can't seem to function and focus well on my studying. err. so my mom bought me a book that i've been trying to find since i've read about it. the perks of being a wallflower. finished it for about 2 or so hours, with breaks in between. twas such an awesome book, made me realize even more of how messed up i am. crap. anyways, im aint here to talk about that. just wanted to note that i should've felt bad about reading something not related to study. i should've but i didn't. twas the best i've felt since i've started reviewing. i got to read something that doesn't involve capacitors or antennas or ideal gasses or equations of lines, and i felt really good. good book + good feeling + slightly good coffee = very good day (minus the stuffy head).

still feel off. can't seem to make myself study. but i have to. and if i want to gain something, i should push myself. coz no one else is gon' do that but me. so after i post this i'm off to my room, sit on my very uncomfortable chair and start answering some questions. and i promise i won't play with my new cam, which came last saturday, and which i love so much. hehe. ta-ta!

18.8.09

study break. (yea, i choose to do this on my study break. can you say 'get a life?'. ugh!)

just want to share my current fave song coz it's freakinly awesome.

fireflies by owl city

You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep
Cuz they fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You think me rude, but I would just stand and stare

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
Cuz everything is never as it seems

Cuz I get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they try to teach me how to dance
A foxtrot above my head
A sockhop beneath my bed
The disco ball is just hanging by a thread (thread, thread)

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
Cuz everything is never as it seems (when I fall asleep)

Leave my door open just a crack
(Please take me away from here)
Cuz I feel like such an insomniac
(Please take me away from here)
Why do I tire of counting sheep?
(Please take me away from here)
When I'm far to tired to fall asleep

To ten million fireflies
I'm weird cuz I hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell (said farewell)
But I know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre
Cuz I saved a few and I keep 'em in a jar

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
Cuz everything is never as it seems (when I fall asleep)

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
Cuz everything is never as it seems (when I fall asleep)

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
Because my dreams are bursting at the seams

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really great song. can't stop listening! ok im out!
cooking rice on this very early tuesday morning. have to, if i want to eat, i'm the only one who's awake. haven't eaten a thing since i fell asleep 12 hours ago, it's 537am btw. 537-12hours. you do the math. batugan. haha. hmmm. crap. my mind just went blank. i've nothing more to say. sheeez, am i that hungry?

13.8.09

quick blog.

love fob's donnie what a catch.

sucks that ryan ross and jon walker left panic at the disco. brendon and spencer are still awesome.

comms suck. bigtime

wasn't able to see the meteor shower last night. but it's all good, meteor shower followed me in my dreams.

i've two freakinly awesome LSS. fireflies by owl city and red lipstick by sd(?). love it.

ugh!

quick blog over. gotta gos cheerios!

6.8.09

OO! ANG TAMAD KO NGAYON! OO NAAA! NAMUMURYOT AKO!!! not just coz today has been very unproductive (mejo harsh ata un) but also coz this stupid data recovery thingy can't seem to recover all my mp3s. all 5000+ of it. ugh!!!!!! i hate my external hd. ugh!!!! nakakamuryot talaga. sinayang ko na nga ang araw ko sa pag ayos ng shit na to pero mukang 1037 lang ang mga mp3 na marerecover ko. 1037 na kantang ayoko!!! naknampucha!!! demmit!
haay. para san ba ulet tong ginagawa ko? ay oo nga pala. pero crap kase eh. sa tingin ko masama to. baket? mas naiisip ko na, crap ang stupid ko. is that license worth it? is it worth this feeling of stupidness and dumbness and all word related to those? is it really? tae. sino ba kaseng nakaisip non. pero on the positive side, at least i'm striving for something again. i have a goal again. that's a good thing.

i want to be somewhere no one knows me or speak languages i know. i want to be somewhere strange. somewhere different. neverwhere? wherever is good. new beginnings. new people. new friends. new surroundings. new perspective. new everything. kahit ano, basta. hehe. pero wanting that is useless unless i pass the stupid exam, coz i wont move, i wont go anywhere until i do. so hopefully, one time ko lang siya gagawin. i believe. i do. wee? di nga? oo nga. ugh! ayan ka nanaman kinakausap sarile. haha! I BELIEVE!!!!

napaka unproductive ng pesteng araw na to. blame it on the weather? hindi na. nothing, no one to blame but me. bago ko tong gawain. to stop blaming things or whatever and take the responsibilities. naks. parang ganda noh? ehehe

haay. been listening to two same songs since this morning. WHY CAN'T WE BE FRIENDS by WAR and YOU BELONG WITH ME by TAYLOR SWIFT. lss.

lyrics.

All this time how could you not know baby,
You belong with me

-you belong with me, taylor swift

5.8.09

The view of Cory’s coffin taken from the Aquino family van.
credit: padayon
credit: joserizal

today, a great woman was laid to rest. thank you president cory. you will be remembered. thank you. if not for you, we would've still been under a very scary government.

it's times like these that makes me real proud to be a Filipino. it's times like these that makes me truly believe that there is hope for our forsaken country, that people are not apathetic to what's going on. it makes be believe that someday, things will be different here; that one day there will be change. yea, change. i know it's kinda overused, you know, with the obama election, but it's really what we need, what we all need. change.

i used to be apathetic about politics and my country and everything. things change. i am no longer apathetic. i refuse to be a casualty of apathy. i will make change, in my own little way.

i'm so proud of my people right now, if only it could be like this all the time - people coming together being human. get it? coz sometimes people forget to be human and thats what makes them suck.

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blog break over. gott go back to studying.

wait, brain nugget. i wish there'd be that much people on my funeral.