31.10.09

lha,rej,kaye

haha! my girlfriends are the best! i wish they know how awesome they are and how thankful i am that they're a part of my life. they sure know how to make me laugh. how i wish they're here with me. sleepover, i miss. reji, magbilang anghel ka. bahahaha! rej, you made me lol, that's the fourth tonight. i think. hehe
oh ron, watapeys. and harry, wut the hell? haha
loled. third time.
wait for me. i just have to finish this thing i've started and then i'm gone.

30.10.09

not trying to make an excuse here or anything. read this on aja's tumblog and it made me smile.

19. Every time you sneeze some of your brain cells die.

photo.

credit: allineeded

the second thing that made me laugh tonight. second to khaye na baliw. hehe

as quickly as it came, suddenly it's gone.

ok na. mabilis ang tama, walang hangover. salamat po. i know.
i think the day i was born was my brother's worst nightmare. he always get blamed because of me. i've no intention whatsoever to make his life miserable, i love my brother, he's the only one i have(and i'm the only sister he's got, too). i pray for him everynight. i hope he doesn't hate me.

lyrics.

"Home"

Thinking back when we first met
I remember what you said
You said you'd never leave me
I let go of your hand
Built my castle in the sand
But now I'm reachin' out again
And I'm not letting go
Till you

Hold me
Mold me
Sometimes I feel so all alone
See, I gotta find my way back home
So why don't you
Shape me
make me
Wash me whiter than the snow
I gotta find my way
Back home

Master upon my knees i pray
I just want to be the clay
Put your arms around me
Place my life in your hands
Lord, I know I'm just a man
I know you understand
This time I'm not letting go
Till you

Anoint me
Appoint me
Sometimes I feel so alone
See, I gotta find my way back home
So why don't you
Chastise me
Baptize me
Wash me whiter than the snow
I gotta find my way

'Cause I'm lost and alone
I've been wandering
Long enough to know
Humbly I search for you
And I'm not gonna rest
Till you

Choose me
Use me
Sometimes I feel so alone
I'm on my way back home

So why don't you
Direct me
Bless me
Wash me whiter then the snow
I'm on my way
Back home
i'm shaking and i have no idea why. i kinda do. but it's weird coz i woke and i wasn't even thinking about it, suddenly my hands were shaking. and now that i i've thought about it, im kinda nervous. just a little. i know for certain that the nervousness comes from looking at the wrong list of board exam passers. yea i know, i'm crap. haha.

come to Me and i will give you rest.

hawak ko na. matagal na. dati pa inaasam asam ko na. nalalasahan ko na nga eh. parang hangin na din na hinihinga ko. natural lang. hawak hawak ko na. inangkin ko na. ngayon, malapit na, hawak ko pa kaya? akin na to eh. pero kung di para sakin, ayus lang, kaya ko bitawan. meron naman pong next time. basta malaki lang pasasalamat ko na nung binigay ko sa Inyo, kinuha Ninyo at pinagaan kalooban ko. at least hindi na siya mabigat. totoo nga talaga. Kayo na po ang bahala. kinakabog po ako, natural lang naman yun diba?
Do you know the most surprising thing about heartache? It doesn’t actually kill you. Like a bullet to the heart, or a head-on car wreck, it should. When someone you’ve promised to cherish forever says, “I never loved you,” it should kill you instantly. You shouldn’t have to wake up day after day after that, trying to understand how in the world you didn’t know.

grabbed from standverystill.

quote.

Man, I know how you feel—third wheel. I have been the third wheel so many times in my life…my mom told me something once that made me feel a lot better. She said the third wheel is what makes it a tricycle.

— Michael Scott

29.10.09

for fear you will be alone

For fear you will be alone
you do so many things
that aren’t you at all.

— richard brautigan

There are people who deserve you and people who don’t. If you have someone in your life who takes you for granted or doesn’t give you the respect that you deserve, leave them in the past where they belong. Surround yourself with people who challenge your mind and bring out the best in you. As for the ones who only exist to bring you down or cheapen your potential; let them find people who are better-suited to their own qualities and principles. Hold yourself to the highest standard possible. People who don’t measure up don’t deserve your time. People who can’t see past their own cowardice or their own arrogance don’t deserve your time. Anyone who doesn’t treat you the way you treat yourself doesn’t deserve your time. And if you are treating yourself in a way that gives people permission to take advantage of you, start showing yourself the exact same respect that you should be demanding of everyone else.

grabbed from styleandsubstance.

this made me cry. if i become somebody else, will things be different? if i go to some far off place, will i be the somebody that i wanted to be? these thoughts never leave my head. and it's sad, coz it shouldn't be there in the first place. someday, i wish to be really happy. as in truly, truly happy down to my bones. i wonder if people ever experience that kind of happiness. i wish they do. i wish we all do.

quote.

It's only after we've lost everything that we're free to do anything.

-fight club

i've already watched the movie but i've yet to read the book.
looking forward to a movie with khaye or rej next week. i do have a life after all. :D
finally,

a time to be alone.
a time to ponder.
a time to relax.
a time to be silent.
a time to catch up with my readings.
a time to just stop and look at the clouds, the stars.
a time to be with my thoughts.
a time to wait.

i hope things turn out ok for all of us.

it's official, i'm back. back in the circle of no life. now i dunno if being back's a good thing or not.

HEY THERE.