30.11.09

Aquarius

This new age sign does not like to fight and it shows. They often get completely stepped on in life. The Aquarian is the optimistic, nice individual whose good graces are despised and taken advantage of. However, these master pushovers of the Zodiac must be admired for their ability to constantly be knocked down and get up and start again. They don’t let anyone daunt them psychologically and, for that, they must be admired. Some Aquarians resort to a bit of passive aggression, usually in the form of avoidance or changing the subject in order stay away from conflicts. Sometimes not showing up to the battle is one way to win it!

29.11.09

distraction.
trying not to burp. afraid it'll be the trigger.
i didn't cry. on the contrary, i was very happy. still am.


my mom is really annoying when my dad's at home.

28.11.09

in a few hours, my dad'll be home.

and i just realized (that's 2 realizations in a day!), i haven't really talked or chat with my dad since i've found out about my exam results. and i don't really wonder why i didn't even try talking to him, coz i really don't want to. in a few hours, he'll be here. i hope i don't cry.
but sometimes i feel like this. it cant' be helped.

so i realized something this morning. uhm. just because some few people have their freaking heads all fucked up doesn't mean that the entire world is screwed. there are a lot of people who do beautiful things, good things. the world is not screwed. my faith in people is fully restored. hope floats.

25.11.09


i never really understood how some people do the things they do. war. beslan siege. mumbai terrorist attack. all those shit. and never has it crossed my mind that Filipinos could do this kind of shit. i was wrong. PUTANGINA. i really don't understand. i can't and i won't. what did those people do to deserve such things??? i really can't understand how because of politics, 50+ persons are brutally murdered. brutally murdered. putangina. i don't want to lose my faith in people's goodness but then things like this happen and i really don't know what to think anymore.

23.11.09

ugh!













[this was a very long post after i got fed up and deleted it all. err!!!!!!!! grrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!]

21.11.09

my mom is addicted to facebook. err. i should not have taught her. now, she spends more time on the net than me. you know it's gotten really bad when that happens.

20.11.09

poetry

mi paborito (scuse my spanish eh?)

i carry your heart with me - e.e cummings

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
not fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)
Who will love you?
Who will fight?
Who will fall far behind?

-skinny love, bon i
ver


i sooooooooooo love this song. i have it on repeat for two days now. hehe.
when she jumpled,
she probably thought she would fly.

-the virgin suicides
it's really not funny, sometimes.

16.11.09

will i ever like what i see?
the heart wants what it wants.

15.11.09

watched 2012 with my highschool buddies...if i weren't wearing mascara or if it isn't for the fact that i'm watching the movie with 3 guys, i would have totally cried my eyes out. that movie was scary!!!! don't even want to think about it ever happening. during the intense scenes i was screaming in my head "my Lord and my God!" SCARY. but i loved it.

14.11.09

sometimes you have to jump in the pool without your floaties on.
So as I'm writing about this, maybe you're writhing
about it too.
Are you out there? Can you find me?
Let's fall in love. I want to fall in love with you.

-Leanna Cortez
fall in the grave i've been digging myself
but there's room for two,
six feet under the stars

-six feet under the stars
i'm guilty but i'm safe for one more day

- six feet under the stars
pass me another bottle, honey
the Jager's so sweet
but if it keeps you around, then i'm down.

-six feet under the stars


yes this song. again. i fell. and bunch of others. new one's actually. love. it. am. i. annoying. you. with. all. my. periods?

13.11.09

falling in love. again.

















with a song. been living off of purevolume since my external hd got corrupted, that's where i save my itunes; and my kuya lost my ipod which means there's absolutely no saving my 5000+ songs. (yea, 5000. but the ones i really really listen to could only be like 500 or less. haha)
hell you did. you really did. and i don't know if i should hate you for that. but even if i wanted to, i know i can't ever make myself. yea, you were that good at what you do. asshole. were you that bored?



waaaah!!!! pages of full awesomeness!!! watch!!!
why is it that there's only an "like this" button on fb? can't i not like? coz i really really don't like that. rrrr...
ok my heart flipped. it wasnt supposed to. wait. oh crap. now it's crushed. maraming salamat ah. tsss. haha
seriously?

12.11.09

whoa. 11.11 pm. i get to have 1 wish, right? my heart jumped for a moment when i saw the time. yay me! ok here it is..*silent wish* ^^
i had the worst nightmare of my life last night. i woke up out of breath with my heart pounding right out of my chest. twas hella scary. im a having a test and the only face i could remember is charissa (my grade school classmate) who gave me a cheat sheet which is really weird coz she's the last person on earth that'll cheat, kaye who was out in the balcony copying things from the cheat sheet charissa gave me, and jhunmark who was dancing with kuya jun the proctor to distract him from the evil deed that we were doing. it felt like hours. if i hadn't woke up i'll probably be dead. mmm...




yea, those are my kind of nightmares thank you very much.
and now i wonder how i'm ever going to get my books back. meh.

10.11.09

i realize i don't recognize anyone, but i don't mind. -neighbors

9.11.09

breathe.

you don't need it. let it go.

breathe.
hmmm...is it just me or...nevermind
just read this. i lol-ed

procrastination is like masturbation, in the end you're just screwing yourself.

7.11.09

my dad is going home for a vacation. yay!!! and for the first time for as long as i can remember, he's going to spend Christmas and New Year with us. wow. i'm getting all choked up right now. wow. wow.

6.11.09

quote

Communication. It’s the first thing we really learn in life. Funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking the harder it becomes to know what to say. Or how to ask for what we really need.
Greys Anatomy
when i turned off the tv, patd's new perspective is on. i turned the tv on 3 hours later and booyah, patd new perspective.
btw, those quotes are from a million little pieces by james frey
my new stash. and now i'm broke. :/
love means never having to say you're sorry
yea, i'm a gleek. haha.

4.11.09

i almost got lost in awesome makati. good thing the city is awesome, so it's almost but no. haha. stupid post.

am happy. =D
currently reading jane eyre. had to start over, i was already half way through but it just felt wrong to start from where i stopped. meh. i want a new book. a new one, as in N-E-W. not like the ones i buy in booksale. where's money when you really need it?
Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.”

-Mother Theresa
for some weird unexplicable moment, i felt really happy. goofy happy. i can't stop smiling kind of happy. heart beating fast kind of happy. i'm going to explode kind of happy. it was weird, but it felt good. i wish there could be more moments like this. inexplicably good moments. oh yea.
You Can't Direct the Wind but You Can Adjust the Sails.

:)

3.11.09

i wish you'd come and tell me that, coz that would be so awesome. haha
so tell me darling do you wish we'd fall in love?

-owl city

owl city = love.

at least by me.

2.11.09

Anyone can give up, it’s the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that’s true strength.

-i still dunno
.

a reblog of my okl blog(post)
yes. dahil uso. i shall ride the wave. bow.

more quoted pix soon. hehe

1.11.09

could the moon be any rounder? could the sky be any clearer? what a great night. hope i had a better camera coz mine absolutely didn't give any justice on how beautiful the moon and the sky looked tonight.

hahahaha!

poetry

i died. *swoon*

one of my fave works of pablo neruda. i've yet to find the compilation of all his poems. i think i've posted parts of this before, i can't really remember. spot my fave lines.

XVII

`
I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.
`
I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.
`
I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way
`
than this: where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.

happy.

ironic. i know. but after so many days? months? years? this is the only time i've been really happy. not in the laugh-out-loud kind of way but in the, how do i explain this? uhm, happy in the wow-im-not-alone-after-all kind of way. it kinda made me re-think about my plan to abandon all and start anew. a few are definitely worth keeping and sticking with. this thing turned out to be kind of a good thing after all. not entirely, but enough to make me realize so many things.

i've the best family. the best cousins. the best bunch of friends.

life is truly beautiful.

i could be happy.

but my mind is forever twisted. my heart forever stained.

*wow. emo. shet. no. just, NO. haha.

this is one embarrassing post which i shall cover with a whole lot of stupid post. hehe.
went to the mall pala today with my kuya and mom. i segued to bestsellers coz i got a little bored (i was going to buy a screen protector for my cam but blah), and boy what goodness have i found! (but didn't buy. err) i found wuthering heights & jane austen's books with really cute covers on! but twas so expensive that even if i really wanted to buy it right then and there, i wont be able to. it cost way more than what i have in my purse. someday. someday. someday. all the books that i want. someday.








i can't wait for someday.
so it's halloween. was halloween. i've always had fond memories of my brother and i during halloween. and as what i can distinctly remember, it almost always include the tv program "magandang gabi, bayan". good times.