so we went to dashboard confessional's concert. yea. it was a whole lot of awesome. chris was awesome. still is. the band was awesome. yea. had a really great time. i think i'm going to love them forever.

ps: manong cameraman, you really had to stand there, huh.
because chris deserves a place here too. :D



You know that place between sleep and awake?
The place where you can still remember dreaming.
That’s where I’ll always love you.
That’s where I’ll be waiting.

-Peter Pan


i wanted you, i really did. why don't you want me?

did. past tense.


tangina! now i'm so confused. i still have three more days. three days. that's a lot of time for thinking. i hope i won't regret the decision i'm going to make. err. this is so hard.
how am i supposed to pretend
i never want to see you again?

-campus, vampire weekend


Sometimes I feel there’s a hole inside me, an emptiness that at times seems to burn. I think if you lifted my heart to your ear, probably you could hear the ocean. And the moon tonight, there’s a circle around it. A sign of trouble not far behind. I have this dream of being whole. Of not going to sleep each night wanting. But still, sometimes when the wind is warm or the crickets sing, I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for. I just want someone to love me. I want to be seen. I don’t know. Maybe I’ve had my happiness. I don’t want to believe it. But there is no man, only that moon.
Practical Magic
so i passed. meh. no biggie for me, but a really big one for my parents and i dunno why but for some reason it's also a big deal for my relatives. what is that about? it's not like i'm going to be an instant millionaire just because i passed the stupid boards. err. so yea, my mom is still in the celebrating mood so i told her what i thought about her spending money to celebrate me passing the boards. guess what? she got totally pissed.

and i feel totally guilty. i feel so selfish. i mean, i told myself that i'm going to pass this stupid thing for them (and my self, too) and i'm going to let them have their moment but here i am ruining everything and being selfish. it's what makes them happy, why the hell do i keep on blocking their happiness? i'm so stupid. stupid as ever.