10.9.15

I want to be part of that, too.

17.6.15

I was under the impression that you like me. That impression blew straight at my face. Boo-ya. Rule number one yow!

14.6.15

Oh god. Lol. Haha. I was stupid for a while there. How did I even think of that. This is why I should never trust my gut feel. I should only rely on facts. Ouch. Rule number one. Alway remember. Should have it etched in my brain. Ouch. Oh well. Moving on...

10.6.15

WHAT ARE YOU DOING AND WHAT DOES IT FUCKING MEAN??!! STOP MESSING WITH MY HEAD! YOU MADE IT HERE SO IT ONLY MEANS YOU'RE TOO MUCH FOR MY BRAIN TO TAKE. UGH! STOP IT! OR NOT, IT'S BETTER IF YOU DON'T. HAHA

17.5.15

Hi 'Nay. I know I said that hindi na ko masyadong galit, siguro nga hindi. But the thing is I can't forgive her. Not after all the things she said to you. Cousins, tss, it's just a fucking label. She's not my cousin, I don't want her to be. Kapal ng muka talaga. Abnormal nga yata siya 'Nay. Tangina, sorry, pero I really can't get myself to forget the things she did. Things will not be the same with her. Just her, though. Sorry.

12.5.15

Checked the stats and....WHO ARE YOU PEOPLE?! There's nothing to see here. Move along. NOW.
Hey shithead, stop. Just, stop. Them butterflies are going berzerk. So please, stop. I'm gonna fucking wipe that stupid grin off of your face. Ughhhhhh. Why the hell?! This is stupid. Ugh! I'm too old for unnecessary frisson.

16.2.15

Feeling a bit ok. Better. Coz...books. Yea. I am not making any sense, I'm going to bed. Thank you.

15.2.15

We're out having dinner. Right now. And all I want to do is go home and lie on my bed and stare at my ceiling. Is that bad? I want to cry. Is that bad? I'm having all these thoughts again. I guess that's bad. I have to pick myself up real quick before this turns into something big. I can't go back to that. I just can't. Not when I've already decided on finally doing what I'm afraid to do. This just can't happen to me again.
A little before two hours after my birthday (that sentence made very few or no sense at all)...

Hey. So yea, I just turned a year older. Spent the day exactly how I want it to - by myself. Technically, I was with my sister-in-law but she was in her room almost the whole time. We talk for a bit, 'twas cool. Slept most of the day away, watch re-runs of HOw I Met Your Mother, and avoided social media and the rest of the world. Exactly the way I like to spend my day. My family almost talked me into going out to dinner but I talked them into going out tomorrow instead. I just really want to stay home and ignore everyone. Then a little after dinner, I went to my room and for some reason that even I don't understand, I started crying. Like really crying - sobbing and shit. My existential crisis game is on point as fuck. Just had to come when I don't want it to and in waves. I feel so fucking empty, unaccomplished, unworthy, and alone all of a sudden. And scared. Another year and still, nothing's going on with my life. I seem to be forever stuck. I have to stop being afraid and make my decision soon...

Another year and I'm incoherent as fuck. Oh well.